These last few weeks have come and gone SO quickly…. I feel like I haven’t had enough time to catch up with my thoughts. And maybe that’s a good thing. June is almost over and these last few weeks have been filled with explorations, dear visitors, settling in, potlucks, and beach days. I am truly blessed to live in such a wonderful place.
And despite my love for my new city and the great people I have met, my heart still misses home and the people I know there. Each step, Jesus has been providing for me. Every time my heart feels a sense of homesickness or weariness, God is quick to bring someone along to keep me going. Lately, I have been trying to figure out my place here at work and at church. Along with this comes the frustration of fighting with myself and figuring life out. Who would have thought I could be so annoyed with myself just by living alone! Sweet people have been kind enough to give me furniture to help me settle in my new apartment, and so far all of my furniture has been freely given! What a blessing!!
Today I went to pick up a recliner chair from someone from my church and I was able to sit and just chat with her for a bit. That short amount of time was so refreshing for me to just sit and remember why the Lord brought me to where I am. To simply pause my crazy, busy life and just listen to this lady really encouraged my heart. I was reminded that life will always be busy, but I have to decide how I will prioritize the tasks in my life. My master’s program has been extremely draining lately and it has been a top priority on my to do list, among other household tasks.
Today I was reminded about the importance of cherishing people. House stuff and school and work will come and go in life; these things hold no deep meaning, they just provide a way for me to live. The meaningful part in these things are the people behind them. My classmates online in class, my co-workers at my job, the people who visit my home; these are truly valuable and meaningful parts of life. My work and school are things I won’t really remember, but I will remember the memories made with the people I encounter.
So yes, life is busy. And it always will be. Dishes always need washing. Laundry always needs to be done. Homework is always due every week. Work is stressful. But maybe sometimes we need to take a brief pause in these things and let the dishes sit in the sink for a few hours longer just to take time to listen to someone share their heart. Maybe we can do laundry the next day so we can spend some time hanging out and making memories. Maybe I should schedule my homework in such a way so I’m able to fellowship with others. There needs to be a balance in life.
I’m reminded of the story of Mary and Martha when Jesus and the disciples had come to visit. In Luke 10:38-42 is the short story about two women serving Jesus. Martha was busy doing household work and stressing out about making sure everything was perfect. But Mary was simply sitting with Jesus and the disciples, just listening. I wonder what Mary was learning about as she sat with Jesus. I’m sure she didn’t regret her decision to leave the chores for a later time and spend those precious moments with Jesus. Would you have been like Martha or Mary?
I think sometimes I can be a Martha, feeling like I need to have everything in order before I can go do something else. But there are times when we need to make sacrifices and wait on Jesus. Pause life to see what Jesus wants to teach you. Be aware of your surroundings in life and take notice of opportunities the Lord has before you. Don’t worry, but trust that He will provide.
So when I picked up the recliner, I was a bit worried about how I was going to unload it into my house because of how heavy and large it is. I stood at the back of my car just staring at the thing and starting to stress out about how it would be stuck there until I could find someone to help me. Maybe it would be weeks before I could move it! (i had a dramatic panic moment). Then I just simply prayed that someone would walk by to help me. Next thing I know, my neighbor is leaving for work and was able to single handedly carry my recliner chair right into my apartment!
Jesus is so good.
“Our soul waits for the Lord; He is our help and our shield.”