As this season of my life comes to an end, a new one springs forth before me. I skimmed through some of my old blog posts from I a few years ago and it’s so beautiful to see the changes that have occurred in my life. I see how the Lord has been part of every little decision and He has been by my side through all the changes.
A few months ago I wrote a blog post around the my thoughts on Isaiah 43:28-19, which says,
“Remember not the former things, nor consider the things of old. Behold, I am doing a new thing; now it springs forth, do you not perceive it? I will make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert.” (Isaiah 43:18-19 ESV)
When I first came across this verse in January, if I had known what the Lord planned for me up until this point, I would not have believed it. A few months ago I had begun specifically praying about moving to Santa Cruz and the time has finally come for me to leave sunny Southern California. Since moving back home from college in 2012, I’ve been so thankful to live with my family these last 3 years and I’ve built many beautiful friendships.
The Lord has allowed me to cross the paths of so many wonderful people who have grown dear to my heart and I can’t express how thankful I am to have known them. Time goes by much too quickly, but as I look back, there’s not one thing I regret or would change. The Lord did not create us to go through this life alone, and I’ve been able to simply cherish these friends. From Mexico mission trips, to choir practice nights, crazy adventures, awesome retreats, Urthe cafe coffee hangouts, chatting about life, birthday surprises, swing dancing attempts, too much sushi, musical jam sessions, hiking explorations, east coast travels, fun wedding dances, beach bonfires, fun concerts, comic bowling nights, camping rv trips, wild game nights, and so much more…. And to think how much has happened in just 3 years, it’s crazy to think how much more will occur in the next 5 to come..
Not only has the last 3 years been fun, but there have also been times of pain. I myself have experienced it, and I know my friends have as well. But that’s what we are here for; to spur each other onward and help one another to fix our eyes on Jesus. It’s in those moments of pain when I have seen Jesus the most at work. In our weakness, He is most glorified. The pain allows us to be able to truly appreciate and enjoy the moments of goodness. I suppose that’s one reason why I truly value the good seasons of life.
I’m thankful for this season I have experienced at home and now the next season in Santa Cruz awaits. I’m still in awe at the blessing of a great job He has provided for me, especially because I can see how unqualified I am. But that’s the best part out of all this. It’s not me, but the power of Christ in me that works to bring glory to His name. All the times I worried and wondered what was next…and little did I know that when it was time, He would make a great thing spring forth… Something I could never perceive.
I’m glad 3 years ago I didn’t know I would be where I am today. It would have been too much for me to handle and I don’t think we were created to hold that much knowledge. The Lord reveals His plans in His perfect timing.
“The secret things belong to the Lord our God, but the things that are revealed belong to us and to our children forever, that we may do all the words of this law. (Deuteronomy 29:29 ESV)
There’s still more to come that I don’t have planned, but the Lord’s unending faithfulness encourages my heart to trust in Him. It may be hard, it may be tiring, life may throw unexpected curve balls, but have faith and believe that He is at work behind the scenes. I’ve experienced it and testify to His great provisions.
I believe there’s a reason why Jesus tells us to have simple faith like a child does….
And calling to Him a child, He put him in the midst of them and said, “Truly, I say to you, unless you turn and become like children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven. (Matthew 18:2-4 ESV)
Why does He give us the example of children? Because children are simple minded and they don’t over complicate things. They simply take life as it comes and easily trust. So why do we over complicate ideas, or stress, or doubt, when there is a God much more powerful than we can imagine who can carry our worries for us? As humans, we ask for the purpose in life, we want a meaning, and we wonder what is the reason for our existence. But there is a God who is perfect and gives us purpose for our existence. In the words of Ravi Zacharias, he brilliantly explains, “God is the only entity in existence, the reason for whose existence is in Himself; all other entities or quantities exist by virtue of something else and in that sense He alone is perfect, uncaused, infinite and an independent being in essence.” It’s okay if you have to read that sentence twice to fully grasp the meaning (I read it like 6 times).
How incredible it is that God is the only one who needs no reason for existence. He just IS. He is uncaused. My mind can’t even fully comprehend what that even means… There is a Mighty God who exists and has the power to do ANYTHING He wants. And for some reason, He chooses to love us and graciously take care of us as we go through this unpredictable life. That’s someone worth believing in. So even if all our questions about life aren’t answered, maybe there aren’t supposed to be. Maybe we have to go in faith like a child and simply trust in God.
“Be still, and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!” (Psalm 46:10 ESV)