After finishing a 10 page book review for my class, I would think my brain would be fried and fingers tired from typing out those thousands of words…but here i am sitting in my favorite coffee shop with my little sister while she does her German lessons online and I feel compelled to share some things on my heart.
“Behold, I am doing a new thing;
now it springs forth, do you not perceive it?
I will make a way in the wilderness
and rivers in the desert.” -Isaiah 43:19
Lately, this verse has been on my mind as I have been praying about what the Lord will do for this new year. 2015. I’ve said it before…time flies. With a new year also comes curiosity, wonder, anticipation, and I’ll admit, a bit of stress and fear of the unknown. I know this fear is not of the Lord, but it comes from my own thoughts and worries from my human heart. In those moments, I have learned how faithful the Lord is to answer my prayers and calm my wandering heart.
This passage in Isaiah brings me so much peace knowing that He will do a new thing in me. It may not be the way I want it to happen and it may not meet my prideful expectations, but He will take care of me and He sees my life beyond what I can currently see. I like how that verse asks the thought-provoking question, “Do you perceive it?” This hits me hard as I think behind the meaning of this question… If I am fearing the unknown, then it means I am not trusting in God. And if I’m not trusting in God, then I am not believing in His promises that He has already shown me through His Word and through the blessings He has given me throughout my life.
“Do you perceive it?” Do I believe that He is faithful to keep His promises? Am I truly praying and looking for His promises? Or am I just going through the motions in a mind-numbing state, living each day as a routine? I know there are times when I say I believe He is faithful, but I don’t really put much thought into what that means.
The other day, I had a talk with a friend about some options I am faced with for certain opportunities, and although it may not be the things I want to hear, there are times when I need a good wake up call. Then the next day, my brother and I were supposed to do homework, but instead it turned into a 2 1/2 hour long conversation about life. How refreshing those conversations were. While we were talking, the Lord opened my eyes to see that I have not been believing in His promises with my whole heart. I whine and complain and stress about the unknown, but that doesn’t solve anything. Yes, I had been reading His Word, but I was not actually applying the promises to my life. Letting go and trusting God is the answer to my concerns.
Do we stop to think about all He has done? Do we believe He will make a way for us through the wilderness and across the rivers?
”Do you perceive it?” Right before that question was asked, the verse says, “now it springs forth.” It sounds to me like the writer is saying “HERE IT IS!” It’s right here right in front of you, can’t you see it? Maybe the Lord wants to do a great work in the things that are already right in front of me. But because I’m too busy worrying about what to do with my life, I don’t perceive what is already before me…
Thankfully, the Lord I serve is gentle and kind-hearted. Reminding me to believe. Sending me glimpses of hope. Eventually fulfilling His promises. People need to see the Light of this world. It’s not about me. It’s about God’s master plan. God’s Kingdom. God’s incomprehensible Love. Will I be one to wrestle with this God? Or will I perceive what He has done and trust that He will open the doors as He desires?
“But now thus says the LORD,
He who created you, O Jacob,
He who formed you, O Israel:
‘Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
I have called you by name, you are mine.’” -Isaiah 43:1